Let Me Tell You What It's Like to Have Skin Cancer
My Skin Cancer Story
When I was a kid my favorite place on earth was a crystal-clear lake in northern Minnesota where we visited family friends every summer. My friend Barbie and I were the same age, wore the same cat-eye glasses, and loved Archie comics, the Beatles, and being in the water. We'd wolf down breakfast, then dive into the icy water and scramble onto our blow-up air mattresses to let the sun warm us. We'd have lunch on the dock and beg the older kids to take us out on the speedboat in the afternoons. We'd stay outside all day long, and while Barbie's skin took on a golden glow, mine would turn hot pink and freckly.
My mom warned me about getting burned. But it wasn't cool to wear a T-shirt or a hat. And the tanning lotions we had then were designed to enhance your "deep, dark tan," not keep you from getting one. Whatever protection they offered washed right off in the water anyway. At night we slathered Noxzema on our burns, and when our skin started to peel, we thought that was kind of cool.
By my teen years, having a tan was every girl's goal, and my summers were less about having fun in the water and more about fitting in on dry land. We would "lay out" for hours coated in baby oil, our hair sprayed with Sun-In in the hopes of transforming ourselves into beach babes. I wanted to look like my older sister. She was tall and tan and young and lovely -- the girl from Ipanema. Except she was from Iowa. And all the boys did sigh when she walked by. I knew I couldn't be tall and blonde like her, but I thought if I could just be tan, not white and splotchy with freckles, the boys would like me, too.
I had no idea how dangerous those sunburns were. But now I know.
My first skin cancer was diagnosed in my mid-20s, when I was living in Dallas. I had to practically bully the doctor to biopsy the crusty, scabby little spot on my left thigh that never seemed to heal. He said it was probably nothing because supposedly I was too young to have skin cancer. But it was a basal cell carcinoma. And it was the first of many.
After that diagnosis I wised up and got out of the sun. Still, the damage had already been done, says Cap Lesesne, MD, a plastic surgeon in New York City who has seen a lot of sun-ravaged faces in his 26 years of practice. "If you fry your skin until you're 25," he says, "and then limit your sun exposure after that, the damage will be apparent when you hit your 50s, in the form of wrinkles, dark spots, precancers, and even cancerous lesions."
But people still love to tan. As a result, cases of skin cancer like mine are up 300 percent since 1994, according to the Skin Cancer Foundation. In fact, there are more new skin cancers each year than cases of breast, prostate, lung, and colon cancer combined.
Even if you were a total sun goddess in your early years, though, it's never too late to start wearing sunscreen and hats and avoiding the sun, says David Kriegel, MD, director of the Manhattan Center for Dermatology and a member of the LHJ Medical Advisory Board. "The prevention you do, even in midlife, can significantly cut down on the number of skin cancers you'll get when you're older."
Yes, I've been a sun avoider for a long time now. I slather SPF 30 moisturizer on my face every morning, rain or shine, winter, spring, summer, and fall. I walk on the shady side of the street, and I'm the queen of fabulous fedoras. I've embraced my Scottish-Swedish whiter shade of pale. And yet I keep getting these freakin' skin cancers!
My tally so far? 1. The one on my thigh, which was taken care of by a simple excision and a Band-Aid. I wish they'd all been that easy. 2. A suspicious spot on the left side of my forehead that appeared in my late 20s. It was a basal cell. A surgeon removed it, and it was deemed to have clear margins. 3. A year or so later the scar tissue on my forehead became inflamed: basal cell again. (Sometimes tumors have hidden deep roots, like a tree, and grow back.) My dermatologist said I should have Mohs micrographic surgery, a special procedure for certain kinds of tumors. I spent all afternoon at a hospital in Dallas while they removed layer after layer from my forehead, analyzing each for cancer cells till I got the all clear. Then they bandaged my quarter-size open wound and I drove to my brother-in-law's plastic surgery office, where he artistically pulled the whole thing up into my hairline. Ouch! 4. Oops, another basal cell on my left arm (all those years of driving in my red convertible in Dallas?). Simple excision. 5. In my late 30s I moved to New York City, and in 2002, when my dermatologist found a superficial basal cell carcinoma on my chest, we treated it with one of the new chemotherapy creams (Fluorouracil). It took weeks and made an ugly open wound for a while, but eventually it went away without a scar. 6. In 2004 the scar on my left arm developed an angry red spot, and I knew what that probably meant. A biopsy proved it: The tumor had recurred. My derm referred me to Dr. Kriegel, who had been one of the first Mohs surgeons in New York. The fairly big excision left an inch and a half scar across my deltoid.
Are we done yet? Afraid not. A few months ago I had a skin exam with a dermatologist I hadn't seen before. I asked about a spot on the right side of my scalp, just above the hairline, that had been bugging me. Sometimes it would fall off, like a scab, but it always grew back. She thought it was nothing to worry about, but I wasn't convinced. 7. I asked Dr. Kriegel to take a look at it. He did a biopsy, and it turned out to be a squamous cell carcinoma, the type that can be a little more dangerous than the basal cell kind. My first, and a bad milestone. Then, a weird coincidence: A few days after I got this diagnosis, a cab driver told me his mother had died of a squamous cell skin cancer that had metastasized. It can happen. Yikes!
Dr. Kriegel recommended that I have Mohs surgery. Since I do occasional TV appearances and was worried about how this was going to affect my face and hair, I decided to go to plastic surgeon Dr. Lesesne for a second opinion (since he's treated about 3,000 skin cancers), and in the course of his exam he noticed another suspicious spot on my forehead. It just looked like a patch of scaly, dry skin. But I had Dr. Kriegel look at it and he did a biopsy. 8. Yep, it was yet another basal cell. A pretty big one. Damn! Two more Mohs surgeries needed? On my face? What did I do to deserve this? Oh, right.
Maybe, just maybe, since I've stayed out of the sun for the past 20 years now, this could be the end of my skin cancer list? Somehow I doubt it.