"I'm a Churchgoing Mom...But I Almost Cheated"
"Come on! Does Jenny honestly think I believe that story? That they only kissed and he didn't spend the night? Give me a break. I'm not a complete idiot.
"When she came home and confessed, I was stunned. I was too disgusted to even say anything. Then I bombarded her with questions. I had to know every detail of what happened. I even went online to check our cell phone records and found more than 300 pages of calls between them!
"I can't stop thinking about this. We had something special. I tried so hard to make her happy. I knew the homeschooling was harder on her than we thought it would be. But I had no idea she was this upset. We've definitely fought about how the kids should be taught, and I'm not used to that kind of conflict. I don't think I ever saw my parents argue when I was growing up. But I didn't realize she thought I was cutting her off when I'd leave the room. I just couldn't stand the arguing.
"When Jenny started going online, I thought it was cool. I'm not a Facebook person but she seemed happier talking to old friends and discussing scripture with her church group. And I appreciated the fact that she was smiling and waving good-bye to me each morning. I knew she wasn't that happy doing the homeschooling, and I thought she was putting on a brave face.
"Now I realize she was just excited to have me gone so she could get online and talk to this guy. I also thought it was a great idea for her to grab some time alone and spend the night at the beach. Meanwhile, she's really at a motel with her lover.
"I feel like such a jackass. I know I need to move past this, but I can't."