What My Children Teach Me
Learning About Soccer -- and Much More
I was never meant to be a soccer mom, but there's something about the glad animal movements of a child on a playing field that I've come to love just because it's so heartening to watch -- the exuberance, the pleasure and the concentration, all playing across a little face. My kids care about soccer, and I care about them, so I have gradually -- though, it must be admitted, somewhat grudgingly and often only partially -- learned to care, too. Without even meaning to, my children have taught me to understand what people love about sports.
For me, this is one of the most surprising and gratifying things about being a mother. Throughout my first pregnancy I fantasized about the wonders I would someday share with my child: I'd teach him to love a growing garden, as I did. We'd curl up together on rainy afternoons and I'd read him my favorite books and teach him to play my favorite board games. At night I'd sing him "Swing Low, Sweet Chariot," the same lullaby my father sang to me. During the holidays we'd watch It's a Wonderful Life and A Charlie Brown Christmas. Having a child, I thought, would let me relive the best parts of my own youth.
You see where this is going: I got the lullaby, and that's pretty much it. Even "Swing Low, Sweet Chariot" didn't last long -- only until my kids could talk clearly enough to request another number, or to change the words and create a parody: I once heard Henry singing "Swing Low, Sweet Cherry Pie" to Joe, who was laughing hysterically at each new outlandish verse. My kids hate board games, and the horse stories I loved so much back in the '70s? They leave my 21st-century children cold. I no longer have time to grow fresh vegetables myself, much less attempt to teach my kids to love the feel of the soil in their hands. Anyway, to them it would probably be just another chore. Even Charlie Brown strikes my boys as passe. They're all Garfield guys.
Still, there's been an entirely unexpected compensation: Parenthood has forced me to step outside my own comfort zone, sometimes complaining all the way, to explore what my kids are interested in, to meet wonderful people (teachers, parents of their friends, coaches) I would never have encountered otherwise, to read books and play games I missed -- or deliberately passed up -- in my own childhood. My father tried to teach me to play chess, but I found it dull until Joe needed a partner. I'm listening to music that wasn't even written in my teen years (Sam is horrified that I still can't tell Green Day from U2, but I can sing along with every song) and reading aloud from whole categories of books I disdained to read at all as a child: A Wrinkle in Time and The Chronicles of Narnia for starters. Fantasy was a genre I despised, but my children's love for it has taught me to see how brilliant some of these stories really are.
And then, of course, there's soccer. Actually watching the game can be excruciating for a mother whose first two children are the kind of soccer players one might expect my gene pool to produce. So for nearly 12 years, I sat and watched my children fail at soccer. At 20 games a year, I watched 236 soccer games in which no child of mine ever scored a single goal. The coach started muttering darkly about a family curse.
But then there was the game we were losing last spring when Joe, on defense, stole the ball and dribbled it all the way down the field. While the crowd roared, he delivered the most beautiful, over-the-goalie kick I ever saw. The whole team knew he'd just broken the curse, and everyone leapt into the air, fists pumping, and careened by him for high fives.
I don't recall jumping to my feet and starting for the field; all I know is that my husband, Haywood, grabbed me just as I was heading out so I could pick Joe up and spin him around and around the field, shouting in exultation. This sounds ridiculous, but it was one of the proudest, most purely happy moments of my life. I didn't even mind, much, that the other team won, 3-2. I know we're going to kick their sorry little tails next year.
Originally published in Ladies' Home Journal, October 2007.
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